There was another Skin tight Outta Sight show on Saturday. I sang Missus Lowsborough-Goodby by Cole Potter, and I did a dance to Nick Caves Red Right Hand. The song went.... well it went fine all things considered. I had a backing track made for me, in a family friends home studio. The CD worked perfectly fine in all of my CD players, it worked fine in sound check, but the minute I got on stage for real DJ Serge's Equipment decided to short out. And trust me, it was his equipment not my CD, since only an hour before my CD had worked fine in his equipment. So the song would short in and out, and when it would come back the song would have skipped. I asked him to start again, and he did, but it did it again. Whatever, that is a piss off, but we can get over it. But what really pissed me off was after it started skipping again, I just discreetly (but loudly) said "turn it off" to serge, then continued on singing. But he didn't turn it off. He turned it down, so I could still hear it, as could the audience. I’m singing with the right timing, and the equipment is setting my CD off timing, so it sounds like shit. So I gesture to turn it off, he stares at me. I gesture more violently to turn it off. HE FUCKING TURNED IT UP!! I didn't loose key or rhythm but I was pissed. When I say turn it off, fucking turn it off! I finally got him to turn it off mostly, when I had one line left to sing! I shouldn't have to tell the DJ/sound man FOUR TIMES to turn off my music before he LISTENS TO ME!!!!!!! Sorry but I get pissed off people don't follow orders, especially if it is to the determent of my performance. And it's even more irritating in the long run for everyone, because if skin tight uses him again I will insist on hearing all of my CD's three times through in their entirety before I let him put my CD in his equipment during a show. Hey I'll bring my own equipment and set it up to the sound board. I don't care, I know how to do it, and I will if I have to.

But basically that really set the mood for me not to have a good time. The show went really well though. But I was completely unsatisfied with everything because of what happened. I think I was put into a bad mood sometime before I got on stage. But after my song, stuff just happened. Some of the things I overheard upset me, and most of it was stuff that only upset me because of my frame of reference. They weren't actually mean or bad things. They were just trigger words for me. Nobody's fault. They don't know what does and doesn't set me off into depression. I heard someone say "oh I hate this guy" when Mysterion was introduced. I saw exactly what Chris meant when he said no one takes him seriously, and thinks that he (his magic, his ambition) is a joke. Everyone was constantly making fun of him, to the point that I started to feel like it wasn't 'good natured ribbing' anymore. That upset me a lot, because it also makes me feel like people think it's a joke that I'm going out with him (I don't know if people think that way or not, it's just what I felt). And I felt a little bad because I kind of ignored Stephanie, because I was so bleh and stressed. But to fucking top it off!!!!!!

Dylan Fucking Studebaker.

Dylan Studebaker, you Fucking Asshole. Ok I get it, Spy vs. Spy, you and Mysterion the battling young Toronto Magicians. But because you can't 'get' Mysterion anymore (because he doesn't care and because he's become more successful in a year, then you who have been doing it for 12!), that DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT to start relentlessly and viciously insulting, and degrading ME! You are lucky that Mysterion was as exhausted and drunk as he was, and that I was too shell shocked, because both Chris and I were ready to crack your skull open on the edge of the table, and then beat the rest of the living crap out of you. How DARE you start telling a woman you only casually know, that she is a cow, that she is ugly, and other foul things, just because she is dating your nemesis!?! (I remember him doing the same cow line on Ileana when she was dating Chris.) I almost threw a drink in your face for the things you were saying to me yet somehow decided that was too mean. I only barely managed to call you an idiot, because, even though you were being an ass, I didn't feel it was right to name call someone I have had no real issues with in the past. But how dare you start condescendingly pretending that you never met me before I befriended Mysterion?!?! "Mysterion's girlfriend.... What is her name? I can never remember... Do you know her name? oh you don't remember either? tisk tisk, what is your name Mysterion's girlfriend?" Fuck you. Does Mysterion ever make fun of your girlfriend? Do I? No! Your girlfriend is nice. I like her and have no problems with her. But you, Dylan Studebaker "Punk Magician"/"Punk Rock Magician" are an ASSHOLE!

All in all, what should have been a lovely evening, and nice weekend, turned out to be depressing and infuriating. And because people have been putting me in a bad mood all weekend, Chris got really upset because he thought I hated him!

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